To the weary heart that is starting to tire as we enter the second half of Ramadan, maybe you didn’t quite prepare for Ramadan as you wanted to, hoping the month would bring about its revival for a heart you perceive to be sick,
To the weary heart that so far Ramadan has simply a month of emotional flatlining, you desperately want to tap into the spiritual high that everyone around you is experiencing but to no avail,
O weary heart now is the time that your Nafs will start to whisper in your ears, telling you to give up.
Why increase in additional deeds when you feel nothing anyway,
Know that Allah sees your struggles.
Know that Allah elevates those with sincerity even with the smallest deed,
Know that Allah’s door is never closed and so long as you continue to knock and crawl towards it, even with difficulty he will match it with that which you cannot fathom,
Shaitan wants you to wallow in despair. But your Lord wants your mercy. Do not let your Nafs trick you into giving up. Small actions matter even if you had lofty aspirations of how Ramadan was going to change you.
Talk to Allah and express your struggles to him.
It may be that your nafs have started filling your mind with distractions. Encouraging you to waste the time away. Why not watch that new TV series? What impact does it have anyway? Know that this is a trick, a delusion to keep you short-sighted and bound to temporary pleasures. Time is a blessing.
It is indeed a sign of his love for you that you are witnessing this month. Take advantage of it and do not let it go to waste.
O weary soul, your Lord acknowledges your struggles and tells you that he is indeed near to you.
“And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me – indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me.” (2:186)
It is no mistake that The Qur’an opens and ends with a dua. Regardless of the state that you are in, whether you deem yourself worthy of his mercy or not, every day that you are granted life, your Lord is inviting you to have a conversation with him. To stand before him, five times, knowing that he is greater than all your sorrows and worries. Anxieties and heartbreak.
Keep struggling. Keep planting the seeds that will eventually blossom.
O weary soul, know that Allah is with you in your struggles and perseverance.
“Your guardian Rabb has not forsaken you, nor is He displeased (with you). And the Hereafter will be better for you than the present.” (92:3-4)
It may be that this will indeed be a month for your resurgence.